I’ve spent my free time the last several days obsessively watching television. I’ve never understood how people could watch TV while also doing something else because when I watch, it is the thing I’m doing. I look at myself and ask “Is everyone like this or just me?” I don’t mean that in a, “There must be something special about me,” sort of way: it’s just that I mostly cruised through psychology class, and, having a deeply introverted personality, I really don’t know what’s up with other people. So, after I finish watching about 4 hours of television almost continuously, I just wonder if that is normal.
I decided to watch television these past days because work has been somewhat draining. The volunteer work on open source software that I usually do felt like a chore for me to work on. Watching TV was meant to be relaxing. It was not. Rather, it was like a vacuum that pulled in all of my energy and attention, distracting me from important things like cooking proper meals or doing laundry. It required that I spend even more time sitting when my life is already quite sedentary. On top of that, whenever I pull myself away, and I am reminded of useful work that I’m not doing, it is easier for me to avoid the uncomfortable thought by watching more television than by doing the work.
To address this problem, some of my habits will be changing. When I was younger, I removed the TV from my room completely because I had a similar problem, but I’ve let that same situation re-occur. A Wii with the Netflix app on it has been removed from my room — I spent more time watching that then anything else. I will also try to get back into the habit of regular workouts three days a week. Soon, I’ll find a healthy balance again.